I think we found Ashley's nanny today. It was our first interview, but Claudia was so warm and friendly and Ashley really seemed to respond to her. Not to mention that she fell asleep in her arms.
It seems funny to me that I started this blog to chronicle my life after the birth of my first child. It really isn't about me anymore. It has become about us. What a self-centered, fantastic and rewarding life I had before she arrived. There is no more time to be self-centered. Much like this blog, it really isn't about me... But now, I feel a love and a joy in my heart that I never could have imagined.
I feel so sad to think that I will be leaving her to go back to work in January. Someone else will be watching over her everyday while I am at work and that kills me a little inside. For the first time in my life, I really feel like I don't know what the right decision is ... I only hope that she feels safe and secure and loved, no matter what.
As my best friend Heather said to me after Ashley was born, "Welcome to a lifetime of worry and guilt."
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